Are you listening to me? Really listening?

"Are you listening to me? Really listening?" - Matthew 11:15

"Are you listening to this? Really listening?" - Matthew 13:9

"...Are you listening to this? Really listening?" - Matthew 13:43

"Are you listening to this? Really listening?" - Mark 4:9

"Are you listening to this? Really listening?" - Mark 4:23

"...Are you listening to this? Really listening?" - Luke 8:8

"...Are you listening to this? Really listening?" - Luke 14:34

I want to really get God's word...really get it. I don't want to just know what its talking about, like from a Bible study or something like that. I don't want to just know in my mind all the right answers. I want to really, truly, know it. I want it to work in me. I want it to change me. I want God to use it to make me who He wants me to be. I want to really trust everything God says. I want it to always fill my heart and thoughts. I want it to guide everything I do. I want it to shape everything I am. I want to really live it out, not because I have to, but because its part of who I am...